he asked me out

he asked me out today, should i go out with him again.
so soon? what would happen if i go out with him again.
i told him to give me some time.
i asked him if he wants to go out with me as friends or whether he just misses me.
he said both.
i keep thinking of him, no matter how much i try to occupy my time, i'm still thinking of him.
i feel so dejected so sad, but why dont i feel the hurt.
i know i'm hungry but i dont feel like eating.
i just want to lay down and sleep the day away.
am getting over him.
what's more important
am i going to get over him this way?

Blue - Breathe easy

Cruel to the eye
I see the way he makes you smile
Cruel to the eye
Watching him hold what used to be mine

Why did I lie?
What did I walk away to find

I... can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at might
Till you're by my side
No I... can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

Curse me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Curse me inside

I won't forget, no i won't
I don't know why
I left the one i was looking to find

Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life

That's all I'm breathing for

I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying by my side
There's no air

somewhere you are

love lost can never be replaced.
why wait for something that can never be?
why yearn for something you can never have?
if letting go now can save you some heartbreak,
why hold on until you can no longer find you way home?
why stay if there is happiness somewhere down your path?
is there such a happiness waiting for me?
should i look to the future and keep the past behind?
my mind is full of questions
with answers that no one can help me find.
i dont know if i will ever find you,
but somewhere you are.

(Poem) Time Lost

Over the years,
we went our seperate ways.
Although we still have contact
We all know the times lost,
can never be replaced.

All we have left are the happy memories,
that will forever be kept in out hearts.
We may never get back to the time in our lives,
when we shared everything.

All i can do now,
is to wish all of you luck
and hope you are happy.

started a blog

i just started a new blog today. so that i can put some of my thoughts into words and into a place where i can share it with someone. If i dont have some outlet to express my thoughts into words. If i dont do this then my standard of english will continue to slip further than it already has. and with the way i bottle things up inside, i'd probably go crazy

My Hazy Life

Through my hazy days,
i thought i could find someone to love
and who loves in return
to bring joy in my life

Through my hazy nights
i though i could find someone to dream about
and someone to dream for me each night
to bring colour to my dreams

Through my hazy dreams
i thought i could find my white knight
who could give me everything i need
and accept my love unconditionally

But now the haze has cleared
i've grown up
there is no such thing as santa claus

Happily ever after rarely comes by
but when it does finally come around
you'd better be there to catch it