Help!! the aliens are here to get me!! They landed at Double O. Lame-O...haha 

Having a ball of a time 

Light UP my life 

and this is ben himself, bored to death while waiting for me to try on clothes 

and his nightmare, THE SHOPPER!! 

His angel 

and ultra pretty girlfriend 

his ugly mistress 

Hello, say hello to ben's pretty wife 

Harmonious Religiously - you sure?

Religous and Racial Harmony in Singapore, does it truly exist?

Recently it seems, one of bens good friends got himself a girlfriend. She is a malay. Not that i have anything against them. Their group of friends have problems accepting her. So then, the question of, would you accept your good friend's girlfriend of a different race arises. Let's exclude the angmohs. Reason being you would probably be in awe of your bud's incredible luck for landing an ang moh. What if she is an indian, malay, china chinese(not a diff race, but diff kind), african, filipino, etc etc... Would you readily accept her into your circle as your best friend's new love, or keep your reservations to yourself.

I find there's a great deal of religious tolerance but not a significant amount of harmony. Many people do not think much of cracking funny jokes about some of our fellow countrymates. i really wonder how they would feel, if they hear these jokes. I find there are many chinese who either dislike or detest malays, like for example, my mom said, bring anything home but a black. This is especially true for the higher earning families and the hard-working chinese. Who do not think much of the malay's "slacker" attitude.

What's worse? In our society today, there is a growing amount of religious extremism. When we come to this topic, the first group which comes to mind are muslims, BUT, the muslims in singapore are rather tame. Its just sometimes you walk on the roads, you see some muslim women garbed in black clothes, and covered from head to toe(a la afghanistan during the time of the taliban) and it kinda scares you to see such people, wondering if it's just their beliefs or is it something more. That's not the point, the point is, there is also another group of people, who are rather extreme religiously, or starting to at least. They are christians. SOME christians are so extreme in their "scouting" for new converts, they turn many people off. I have heard stories of the going ons in SOME churches about how they lambast other religions. If you believe in this or that you will go to hell.

Why can't we just leave the other religions to believe in what they feel is logical. Hey, to each his own. Every religion has its own ideologies of what is right or wrong, on heaven and hell. I feel every person should practice his/her own religion to his/her best ability. Christians believe by doing so and so, you will go to heaven. Buddhists believe by doing so and so, you will get a better life the next time around or even go to heaven. So let each other believe.

There is so much violence in the world today. I really wonder what goes on in the minds of those terrorists. By killing so many people again and again, even children, what are they trying to say, what is the message that they want to bring across, to the whole world. To let President Bush know what they won't be bullied? Or to let the people know that they want to be able to continue to practice their extremist religions. Maybe they should begin to realize that they USA is going to stay a super power for a very long time to come. The only thing that these wars are going to bring again and again is the loss of innocent lives. The terrorists should realize this, President Bush should realize this. Is there not a peaceful way to resolve all this suffering(a la Gandhi)?

Busy Bees Make Tons of Honey

With a test on thursday, presentation tomorrow, project submission next week. I'll be busier than a busy bee, sigh, makes lots and lots of honey but no money...

Since there are so many competitions around sp, me and mat were thinking of joining a few and see if we can get some $$..Maybe i should join that talentime thingy and try to get that ipod. Think i can make it?

For Her Tip No. 3

Try to bring her out somewhere nice/romantic once in a while. Can be a a nice restaurant or a walk in a moonlit park.

then say hello to the not so good looking pair of us 

say hello to pretty me 

Happy Days

Woke up bright and early today to go to East Coast Park to spend some time with mother. Had breakfast and cycled for about 45 mins. Ass was hurting like hell already, i really enjoy cycling, thought maybe could cycle a little longer, but i guess the rest were tired too. Went back to mom's office to do some stuff, then went for lunch @ Marina Square.

Marina Square used to be this really bustling hive of activity until recently when it closed much of its area for renovation. The whole place is now like a ghost town. Some new sections have been opening slowly here and there, but people arent really going back there.

After lunch mom and sis went to do their hair, and the rest of us, namely me, little sis and dad, were bored out of our wits. So we decided to walk around and look for something for mummy's birthday which is tomorrow. So, this was the real headache. What do you get a woman who has every material thing that one could possibly own on the earth? Sigh...Got her something we thought she'd like in the end. I got 2 more pairs of shoes for CNY and kei got one pair as well...

Muahahahah!!! I have the Charles and Keith privilege card...yay!! Although its only an extra 10%, its better than nothing as they rarely have storewide sales.

Went back to bathe and stuff, then went for dinner, got baby to come along, so i could see him as i missed him so much, bloody lots in fact. Was supposed to go for some drinks with his friends, but that was cancelled, so we ended up watching elektra in Cine. Rather nice movie, cliched plot. But if the plot wasn't cliched and the heroine died, nobody'd like the show. The ironies of human nature.

New Wallpapers - Spring Collection 2005

For the full set of wallpapers, please go to my wallpaper site. By the way people, i just want to find out who likes my wallpapers and actually uses them. If you do, just drop a note in the tagboard or in the comments. Thanx very much.

For Her Tip No.2

Give her just because gifts/surprises. They dont have to be material gifts, it can be small gifts like sweets, chocs whatever strikes your fancy. You could even give her coupons for things like a massage etc...Its the thought that counts. She'll be delighted!

For Her

I have decided to start giving "For Her" tips on my blog. Hope you guys find them useful..

Tip No 1.
Tell her you love her several times a day.

:: Sale, Sail! ::

B3n is sailing again. His schedule is pretty packed nowadays, almost once a week. Which leaves me here pretty much on my own. i dont mind really, i have stuff to do too. I can catch up on my reading, finish my procrastinated work, go swimming. Try to do more things so i dont dwell on it too much.

Guys of the class...pick from the extreme left the one beside him and extreme right 

Here's the original laydee herself 

Suwan Suwan cute cute....making fun of suwan's favourite pose 

The White Parade 

Happy Birthday my baby buns

Ben is 26 today!!! We started the celebrations on friday night actually. They had a big everybody in january celebrate together at Double O thingy. I think double o is rather okay but just not fun enough, the crowd is predominantly a working older place thingy as opposed to a rnb club like black or rouge/zouk where the music really rocks and the crowd is younger.

The next day was dinner with his family at Novena. There was so much food, it couldnt be finished. Was a little late cos i went to get a gift for baby. Since orchard is so near novena and ben hates orchard road jams, i took a bus down to meet him. After the dinner, we drove all the way to Fisherman's Village(Pasir Ris of all places). It turns out they waited for us before ordering(paiseh paiseh). Played some drinking games after dinner, which got more than a few of this little group a little high. I played on the swings with ben for a little while at Pasir Ris Park, i dont think i ever went so high up. It was my romantic highlight of the night. I wish i had my camera. There were stars out, Ben taught me some, funny i never noticed the patterns till he pointed them out. We left for home(mine) and then i had to sleep already as i was dead beat after a long day on my feet. I had lots of fun with my baby and his friends.

Today proper went out with parents and aunt to buy new year stuff. Bought almost everything i need cept for a few items. Reached home, had a little rest and got ready for our soccer game. The game was not THAT exciting. Funny that the highlight of the entire time was caused by a bunch of jokers who suddenly decided to cheer and spray foam-bottle cans when indonesia scored. Thus catching the attention of the riot-fearing police men who then brought them out to take them names. The bunch of jokers became heros.

Have you ever seen triple lane parking(i.e. 3 lanes of cars + the parking lot)? If you came early for that parking lot....dulan i tell you, you would have been stuck in a see of cars right smack in a middle of nowhere with 3 lanes of cars on your right and the row of seperator on your left. The whole driving lane turned into a mass carpark. This shows that you shouldnt come early to park for big games, you will never get to leave. I knew Singapore would win in my gut, perhaps it is my staunch patriotism. Maybe i should have bet before going, could have got myself a little extra dough.

Man and Bed

I know exactly how i want a man to make me feel. I want the feeling to be akin to the sensation of sliding into my bed at night. Let me explain.

When you are dead tired at the end of the day and its time for sleep, the moment you lay down on your bed, your muscles start to relax and inner soul starts to relax at that very the moment. The mattress is soft yet firm, it cushions yet supports. Your skin then shivers as you slide the blanket over your body. Warmth settles in your skin as heat surrounds you. As you rest your head into the fluff of your pillow, you're in heaven.

No place in life for regrets

I was looking through Friendster in class today. I started to realise i actually know many people from Mgs. There was easily 200 in our cohort. I started to add and add and add. All the faces i came across were so familiar, these were faces i used to see every other day. Everyone's becoming so pretty (testament to the Mgs girls being pretty thingy), everyone looks so different, i admit i wouldnt recognise some of them if i ever came across them on the street. When i got home, i took out my old yearbook. While flipping through the pages, memories in the deep recesses of my mind pushed their way into my thoughts. Suddenly the memories become so clear, just like a vivid dream. I remember all the talking during assemblies, how everyone complained about the long flights of stairs we had to climb right after, i remember how everyone would rush for nasi lemak on tuesdays, i remember hock seng and his eternal shouting(he was the proverbial ah beng to us, so was his son), the note passing be it from/to me or as a go between. I recall all the times, all the fun, all the simpllicity. The times during tennis in sec 3, when we would joke with colin the coach and pick BALLs. I remember Joyce Ang in sec 1, i remember Tan Hing Lan in sec 2(incidently, they are all math teachers since i suck @ math). I remember all the wacky times we had in sec 2 with marvelle and the gang. Sometimes i thought although marvelle was rather guyish she was like this mother hen, who'd stick up for any of us. I remember she'd pull my sleeve (or was that genevieve) and drag me somewhere.

I regret now, that i never managed to make real friends (cept for a few) in all the time spent in that home away from home. I know it is my inability to open up to someone(i recall leonora once telling me that i was very hard to read) and although i am a rather good listener, i have always been too nice to be direct for fear of hurting that person further. I was too shy and too afraid to do many things as my mother was still in her strict phase thing. I wanted to do all the wild, fun things deep inside my heart but never got the guts to. Like all other things, i realise i never fully put any genuine effort and heart into much of what i did(at a time when effort and heart were so important, friendships, sch work, planning. All i did was wallow in my self-pity. It was because of my obsessiveness with my low self-esteem over my grades, myself and my looks and my pimples(yes i have always been vain, so sue me). There were numerous times, i looked on with envy when these girls were doing crazy things, i wanted to be like them. But due to my indecisiveness i never did so.

I remember being a cry-baby in primary school. I remember how i just shouted FUCK YOU(i had just learnt it from i dunno where) at elena in pri 5 because i couldnt take her name calling(i was rather sensitive) anymore. I remember falling down in pri 1 right in front of the classroom door while rushing down to assembly. I think it was lorraine who helped me up. I remember how in primary 2, su min taught me how to fold her groups' secret box. I felt so delighted because she made me feel i belonged. Then she progressed to teach her group a new box because she taught me the 1st one. Then i got dissappointed. I remembered pets day, i brought my terrapin one day(not the one that died in the toilet).

I remember how we would sneak back into class during open day in sec sch(they got rid of it) to play heart attack and bluff. Those were great bonding sessions, lots of screaming, laughing and shouting. AC Guys were the staple during Open Day. I remember all the bitching in KAP(an essential hangout for all cool Mg-gals). The sweet-stealing in cold storage. I remember so many things it is impossible to put them all down at this point of time. I had so much fun in spite of all my self brought-on troubles(oh the life of a young girl). I know now what i did not know then, that those were the best years of my life thus far, and i regret not enjoying my time there any more than i did. I want to know who i hurt and forgive those who hurt me(janice zhang for one, i shall keep that to myself). I regret being so reserved, so shy all the time. When we all went our seperate ways after, i never managed to get my guts up to keep those friendships.

Just recently, i met up with jane again, then followed by jaclyn. I still felt rather distant, in spite of all the times we spent. They were so long ago. I am however, getting more comfy with jane, we've been meeting more frequently, been in contact. So many of us have been changed i find. Next i want to meet marvelle, leonora, kimberly, the list goes on............

I know that i will insist my daughter goes to MGS no matter wat people have to say about the dangers of elitism but it worked for me. Its not a religious thing but an experience, of love, of friendship, of fun, of excellence in character, of what LIFE is. I feel from my years in MGS and the upbringing of my family has it shaped me as person, my faults, my strength. To master, To grow, To Serve. Here's to the institutions of school and family.

Ben is gone for 3 days this time. The first 3 day sailing i experienced. God i miss him. I'm thinking about him all the time. Cant wait till he gets back. I want to hug him.

Ahoy there Matey!

We went to the library sale @ suntec today. I think last year's sale was much better even though it was also the last day. Got 7 books, 3 for kei kei. Just like last year, books are 1 for S$1. That is if you buy in even numbers (cos its buy 2 for the price of 1). At exactly 6pm during the sale, the entire convention hall observed a minute's silence to remember those who perished in the Tsunami disaster. All activity stops, cash registers do not ring, the place was so quiet. Looking around at the faces near me, i thought, most of these people keeping silent here do not look as if they mean it. They gave the impression that they were just waiting for that 1 minute to be over. After we finished we trudged down to City Chain to adjust the watch my mum got for me in Hong Kong. My god! Almost half the length of the watch (in links) was taken out!

While walking around, i noticed so many of the shops are having sales. Help me! I have the urge to go shopping again. After the money i spent during the Mango sales, that is a highly unwise urge.

Throughout the time i spent with Ben, i had these wierd food cravings coming suddenly. I wanted to eat Auntie Anne's Pretzels, I absolutely love Auntie Anne's Pretzels. My favourite one is Caramel Almond. In the past, they used to give you the dip free, if you order Caramel Almond. Now, however, they make you pay for it!? How unfair is that! Then next i wanted to eat Pound Cake. I realised i havent eaten pound cake in a long long time. I could almost taste it in my mouth. So i bought pound cake for breakfast tomorrow but there is less than half left now.

Went back to Ben's place for dinner as his uncle made Hokkien Prawn Mee. The Prawn Mee was very good, better than most of the usual you have in the food courts we have here. Watched tv while eating and it was kinda tricky eating and watching cos i had to balance the plate in my hand. I couldnt hold it from the bottom as it was hot, neither could i hold it on one side, in the middle of the air as it was too heavy. I couldnt put it on my thighs as my skirt was riding up and the hot part of the plate would have gotton onto my skin. Thus if i wanted to balance it on my body it would have to be on my tummy. But this way my mouth would be too far from the plate. And being a not so clean eater, that is not a very good position to be in. In the end i balanced the plate with my five fingers on the egdes of the raised circle beneath the plate.

The next obstacle was eating with a fork, did i mention i am not exactly a very clean eater?? I was terrified of spilling the noodles here, there everywhere or getting some on my shirt or face etc and thus embarassing myself in front of his family. Why didnt it occur to me to get chopsticks? Which i am definitely more adept at than forks. *what an idiot*

Till my next (not so interesting) adventure in Singaland.

5th Month!

Today is our 5th month together, and we did something different this time, we decided to go for dinner with Auntie Florence & Gang instead of our usual solo dinner routine. Dinner was at a Thai restaurant called Thanying. We went there before, the food is fantastic as usual. I ate so much i feel like an absolute pig. I had one helping of pineapple rice, one helping of plain rice ( because there was green curry). Ben wanted more plain rice a while later, but the waiter gave me some as well (Blearghz there you go). Doesnt really matter as i love green curry. The stuffed chicken was delicious but one of my favourites was this rice cracker appetizer with a special sauce on top. The sauce is excellent, it would have went very well with plain rice.

We're into our 5th month now. Everything is smooth-sailing as usual, but we had the occasional rough sea a while back. We're good now, i'm beginning to learn how to be more independent. Ben's having more duties and sailings, i find after a few times, i'm more used to it. I still do miss him, i just try to suppress it. I love him all the same. We've been doing some interesting things lately, just waiting for the rainy thing to clear up so we can do more.

:: Urbanista ::

The past few weeks have been rather drab, not much exciting happenings, we mainly just bummed around at home. The excitement of Christmas and New Year took quite a lot out of my system. I'm just recovering from being sick, so not much mood to blog and stuff. Havent been wathcing much movies either. We did watch 50 First Dates at Ben's house.

Auntie May is in town, and we're having dinner with her tonight..Thai Food, hmm..mm. Ah well.

Thats it i guess.

These are very pretty too..*Hint Hint* Valentine's Day is on its way!! 

Wow!! What beautiful flowers. These are very pretty 

I feel like hugging my pillow and crying the night away

The story starts like this,

On new year's eve me, Jane, Sijing, Alvin and Jacob went out to rouge. We counted down there and had fun dancing the night away. We danced til the guys nearby must have thought we were lesbians. Jacob asked for my number, so i gave it to him.

Today, after my movie with baby, Jacob messaged me, i gave him my number not thinking that he'd message me. Baby got so upset. It hurt me so much, thinking that he didnt trust me. And i dont feel so good today, have a sore throat and a little bit of a blocked nose. I feel like crying the night away.