Beauty and the Beast

Humans and their eternal flights towards perfection have always ended up in frustration and disaster. Recently it seems, there are a lot of reports on botched plastic surgery jobs. As more and more people are going for surgery, more and more people are suffering from after effects, makes one wonder how safe it really is. Some people become the beast (in terms of looks). Sometimes i do contemplate if i will actually undergo plastic surgery in the future. but one huge deterrent is pain. i hate pain.

I wonder why these people just cant accept who they are, although yes, life is easier if you look better. No use countering that statement as it is generally true. If there are 2 candidates competing for a job offer, and both are equally capable, the better looking one will most probably get the job. Especially if it is a marketing job. One wonders if this era of celebrity and luxury is bringing our society to even higher depths of shallowness.

Yes, i have been on the other side on the line. I understand completely how it feels to be really down in the dumps simply because you have no confidence in yourself, and the way you look. With beauty or slight beauty even, comes confidence, sometimes even arrogance in the case of someone i see regularly (not sch mates nor close friends). I have heard of girls as young as 15 getting their eyelids done. It was unheard of in my time.

All these stories of botched surgeries makes you wonder the percentage of people who actually suffer from such after effects. Sometimes, when i look at the medical industry, personal experiences and media coverage cause me to regard it with a sort of fear. Although it saved my life numerous times in my childhood, it no longer holds that untarnised image i used to have of it.

Is all this pursuit for perfection turning us all into beasts? Incapable of looking beyond the surface?

Finally Over

Ha! I finally handed in my killer monster of a programming project. although i think we didnt do very well in terms of creativity and creating codes other than the ones the teacher gave us, i'm just really happy and relieved that its all over.
Now i can concentrate on other things, like getting more rest and starting my revision for all the final tests and exams so that i'm not so rushed for time when its time to study. This way i would have more times to do other things. I need to catch up on my sleep, pimples are popping up all over my face once again due to the lack of it. i'm so tired i hardly have energy to do many things with ben. Debby needs her groove back.

New Wallpapers

Have been really busy lately, but came up with a few of these in between coffee breaks while doing projects. Love the elefun one.


There have been tons of projects, assignments deadlines of late, with still more to come. Report Writing and Presentation Skills(RWPS) was just submitted. Legal Systems and Contracts just today. Web Services Development + Mobile Applications For Business on Tuesday. French Test on Thursday. RWPS presentation week after next, along with another 2 tests and French Oral Test as well. Between time for my work, time for my family, time for ben, i really dont have any time left for myself. I realized that each semester goes by faster than the last. The pace picks up, i'm still coping, but i wonder how long i can still cope. I come back home dead tired at the end of everyday wishing i could just go to sleep but i have to start revising. My grades are all slipping, i cant let that happen. I never want to feel like how i did in jc, i felt simply useless. Maybe the black wallpaper symbolises how i felt in that period of my life, utter frustration.

Dreams

I love you like the stars i wish upon,
you take me to heavens beyond.
My one and only is you,
for you alone make all my dreams come true.

Long ago, the yellow flowers scattered on the path i walk on,
seem like fallen dreams.
Now i walk on a bed of dreams,
waiting for me to be picked up one by one.

didnt really do much at the beach, lazed around read newspapers and books, ate titbits, brushing sand off ourselves and the mat. just had a lazy day at the beach basically.  

look at us squint in the sun 

we went to the beach today, with the promising weather, who could resist the beach? 

lazy weekend

i was supposed to do a lot of work over the weekend, but got lazy and spent saturday sitting in cars and lazing ard at ben's place, then followed by slogging sunday morning away. went to the beach for a while, then continued slogging when i got home. work work work, sigh...

guess who?? this adorable little girl is?...haha 

me and jane 

is he your prince charming? 

Graduated tinting. The following has been an advertisement for the new picasa2 by google. Get yours today at http://www.google.com (images page) 

A spot of colour in a bleak picture 

in our own little dreamy world 

once in a blue moon 

pink us 

red devils 

green with envy 

Me and my beloved family 

Dont you just love us? 

say hi to us! AGH! The wind is blowing all my hair off my head. What a Lame-ass i am. 

and tada! This is what it looks like now...haha, in an effort to make it look as if i have more hair, i tried to look like sadako. Actually, the wind was just too strong. This was taken on sunday. 

Another look... 

See this is what my hair looked like when it was first done, i really loved it. Why 'loved'? cos it faded to brown now, which is usually what happens when you do reddish colours. Anyway, this was the first look and this pic is especially for my Dar Ling Ling in Canada. Do you guys think my hair is nice?

Special things i want to do with you:

1. Go to the zoo.
2. Go to Downtown east and have a go at the go-karts with you.
3. Go to the bird park.
4. Dance with you
5. Go to wild wild wet in pasir ris
6. Go to the waterfall gardens in sentosa to take pictures

Things i want to do this year:

1. Have a reunion with the 2000 cohort but i know that's highly unlikely, so i'll settle with jing yi's next reunion
2. Since i am 21 this yr, go watch an RA movie just for the satisfaction of going pass the uncle
3. Go for a picnic at botanic gardens with a dog running around the place.
4. Go to the beach with you and KOBY.

Things i want to do in my life:

1. Go to get myself drunk as least once in my life
2. Go to USA
3. Go and see snow
4. Go scuba diving
5. Go Bungee Jumping (i wont go skidiving)
6. Go for a brazilian wax

Hate being in love

Love is a double edge sword
It will make you deliriously happy
but it also will bring you to the pitfalls of sadness.
It gives you joy but it hurts you.
Love plays with your heart one moment
and stabs it the next.
Love is not all its made out to be anymore.

Crash!

Have you ever noticed this? Whenever you walk in a crowd, you'd tend to fear the head - on - head encounters. Let me explain, whenever you encounter someone walking towards your direction, in your direct path, that person will veer to a direction and it just so happens that you will always veer in that same direction (i.e. she left you right which makes it the same since you are facing each other). You will go on in this direction, all the while willing her/him in your mind to change direction. Until finally, you almost collide, then will you change your direction. Oh, the little quirks of city life.

Happens to me all the time. Does it happen to you?

All Falls Down

ahh! my hair is dropping off. a lot of it, not in chunks, but just a lot. have to go to yunnan already