This is Ben....The Arabian prince?? or princess??? you decide..
Monday, August 30, 2004
Sunday, August 29, 2004
Friday, August 27, 2004
National Day After Thoughts
Recently, well not so recent as it seems. i was reading this section on national day. Dont you just find it irritating when we always lament that we do not have a national identity. If we would just stop whatever we are doing, look around us, we would notice that we actually share many things.
Let me articulate. It all just starts with simple things, like the most famous, buying 4D and ToTo, the whole of singapore does it! Even teenagers! who doesnt want to strike it rich? Or how all the drivers in Singapore cheats on their parking coupons(this is debatable). What about the love for food? (Proof seen in most middle aged men). We Chinese eat everything. prata, mee siam, mee goreng, nasi lemak. Our malay friends cant eat our food due to religion but with the new halal food courts( i dont know where it is), they are eating our food too.
The Accent perhaps? It is almost a national language, the thing is, not only the chinese speak singlish, so do the malays, the indians, the eurasians. Even my malay friend Madam back in my jc days knew "eat snake" is a chinese phrase and i went like huh? i thought it was english. Where else in the world could you find such diversity or rather community in diversity.
I guess one thing that bonds us all together is the love for the place we grew up in. Even if we were to move out of Singapore one day, we will still love her. We can complain about our country all we want, but others cant do it. Remember (i dont think you all will) 4 years ago, at the sydney olympics, the commentator went:"singapore, a small nation with big dreams but not big potential". something like that, well guess who blasted him? All of us, it came out in the papers the very next day, albeit a small section in LIFE. (this is just like the fat psychic of women, i can call me fat but not you). Its that common things we all share, like watching the National Day Parade and waiting eagerly for the fireworks. In the midst of oohing and ahing in your balcony(if you can see it) you realise some of the oohing and ahing is not coming from you, everyone in your block is probably oohing and ahing together with you. Just think about it for once. Let's say you were in South Africa, near the rainforest on some holiday. You prob wouldnt expect to hear another Singaporean voice. But what if suddenly you heard someone saying:" wah! so many mosquitos...can die ar...bloody blood suckers". would you be glad you met a fellow countryman in a foreign land?Of course! But like all Singaporeans you prob wont have the "face" to go say hi.
And what is the average singaporean going to do without his CAR?? we grow up listening to our dads and mums complain about COE prices, oil prices..or how the car shine shop is forever trying to fleece them or how the indian man who does the car washing is not doing a good job.
And what about our homes? About 70% of all Singaporeans live in HDB flats. We all love Lee Kuan Yew (i do not mean this sarcastically, he gave us everything we have), sometimes i think he is a genius, or rather someone who takes highly calculated risks.
Right here in our home, we get to enjoy an unprecedented level of security. We can walk home at like 12 midnight after a night of clubbing and not have to worry about our lives. And if there is anything u do not like at all, just complain, make a big fuss of it, and you will get what you want. If nothing works out...there is always C.A.S.E. , they will try to help you as far as possible. BUT no one really bothers anyway.
The bottom line is, we complain a lot. but nonetheless, we LOVE it here. Although we always complain it is boring..we still stay here. why? no one really knows, well maybe its because for all of us, our grandparents, relatives, cousins, friends, all stay within a half an hours drive? or that if you go to orchard road on any given weekend, you are bound to see people you know or have known or bla bla bla...The thing is this place is so small, it is so convenient to keep relationships( but still some of us are lagging behind in this department). Imagine if you lived in the USA. you are studying in say...California..and your parents stay in florida??....you would have to take a flight to get home. but here, if you are studying in NTU of NUS.. even if you are staying in the halls. all you have to do to go home is hop onto a bus or train..will take you about 2 hrs to get to where you want as opposed to 2 days.
All of us singaporean women either have had boyfriends who go to NS or have husbands who do reservice. We are all suffering in the same boat ( some women might not call it suffer, more like mental space).
We are Singaporeans. One For All, All For One.
I think this is worthy of the straits times forum...who agrees?
i decided to feel patriotic, so there.
Let me articulate. It all just starts with simple things, like the most famous, buying 4D and ToTo, the whole of singapore does it! Even teenagers! who doesnt want to strike it rich? Or how all the drivers in Singapore cheats on their parking coupons(this is debatable). What about the love for food? (Proof seen in most middle aged men). We Chinese eat everything. prata, mee siam, mee goreng, nasi lemak. Our malay friends cant eat our food due to religion but with the new halal food courts( i dont know where it is), they are eating our food too.
The Accent perhaps? It is almost a national language, the thing is, not only the chinese speak singlish, so do the malays, the indians, the eurasians. Even my malay friend Madam back in my jc days knew "eat snake" is a chinese phrase and i went like huh? i thought it was english. Where else in the world could you find such diversity or rather community in diversity.
I guess one thing that bonds us all together is the love for the place we grew up in. Even if we were to move out of Singapore one day, we will still love her. We can complain about our country all we want, but others cant do it. Remember (i dont think you all will) 4 years ago, at the sydney olympics, the commentator went:"singapore, a small nation with big dreams but not big potential". something like that, well guess who blasted him? All of us, it came out in the papers the very next day, albeit a small section in LIFE. (this is just like the fat psychic of women, i can call me fat but not you). Its that common things we all share, like watching the National Day Parade and waiting eagerly for the fireworks. In the midst of oohing and ahing in your balcony(if you can see it) you realise some of the oohing and ahing is not coming from you, everyone in your block is probably oohing and ahing together with you. Just think about it for once. Let's say you were in South Africa, near the rainforest on some holiday. You prob wouldnt expect to hear another Singaporean voice. But what if suddenly you heard someone saying:" wah! so many mosquitos...can die ar...bloody blood suckers". would you be glad you met a fellow countryman in a foreign land?Of course! But like all Singaporeans you prob wont have the "face" to go say hi.
And what is the average singaporean going to do without his CAR?? we grow up listening to our dads and mums complain about COE prices, oil prices..or how the car shine shop is forever trying to fleece them or how the indian man who does the car washing is not doing a good job.
And what about our homes? About 70% of all Singaporeans live in HDB flats. We all love Lee Kuan Yew (i do not mean this sarcastically, he gave us everything we have), sometimes i think he is a genius, or rather someone who takes highly calculated risks.
Right here in our home, we get to enjoy an unprecedented level of security. We can walk home at like 12 midnight after a night of clubbing and not have to worry about our lives. And if there is anything u do not like at all, just complain, make a big fuss of it, and you will get what you want. If nothing works out...there is always C.A.S.E. , they will try to help you as far as possible. BUT no one really bothers anyway.
The bottom line is, we complain a lot. but nonetheless, we LOVE it here. Although we always complain it is boring..we still stay here. why? no one really knows, well maybe its because for all of us, our grandparents, relatives, cousins, friends, all stay within a half an hours drive? or that if you go to orchard road on any given weekend, you are bound to see people you know or have known or bla bla bla...The thing is this place is so small, it is so convenient to keep relationships( but still some of us are lagging behind in this department). Imagine if you lived in the USA. you are studying in say...California..and your parents stay in florida??....you would have to take a flight to get home. but here, if you are studying in NTU of NUS.. even if you are staying in the halls. all you have to do to go home is hop onto a bus or train..will take you about 2 hrs to get to where you want as opposed to 2 days.
All of us singaporean women either have had boyfriends who go to NS or have husbands who do reservice. We are all suffering in the same boat ( some women might not call it suffer, more like mental space).
We are Singaporeans. One For All, All For One.
I think this is worthy of the straits times forum...who agrees?
i decided to feel patriotic, so there.
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Monday, August 23, 2004
Sunday, August 22, 2004
bittersweet symphony
today..i got my usual dose of jean marc in the day. after which i met ben to spend some time with him before going to the dinner. After dragging for quite some time. it is finally time to say farewell to my cousin. well, they are leaving on Monday morning, at around 6 am plus. I want to go send them off..but i have a test in the morning. I wonder when i will see them again. What i'm afraid of is the emotion. It's very hard to see someone you've grown up with practically all your life leave.
On the one hand, i'm happy for them. That they are starting a new life, but on the other hand, i really hate to see them go. It's so bittersweet. But . C'est La Vie.. Nothing is perfect, you can never have everything u want.
The dinner was very bittersweet...different from last week's, when it was so noisy and stuff. This one was sad, in a way, with some tears shed.
No matter how strong i may look, i know i will miss them. But i also know i will see them again. They wont be gone forever. I guess what i'm worried about is not the missing, but that we would drift further and further apart eventually.
If we work hard, this wont happen isnt it?? But who knows??
-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`
Spent a little time with ben today, was supposed to study today,....but.leave it to sunday.
We went for a movie after the dinner. I got my baby to come along too....i wonder if he felt sort of left out. We watched the Stepford wives....Another set of concepts. But it was okay i guess...not bad overall. Ben was really tired, cos he had his IPPT in the morning, but being the nice boyfriend he is, he came anyway. Felt so guilty, cos he was like almost sleeping, reddish eyes and stuff...sigh.
Came back, said farewells and voila..here i am.
Oh well...Good Night Everyone
On the one hand, i'm happy for them. That they are starting a new life, but on the other hand, i really hate to see them go. It's so bittersweet. But . C'est La Vie.. Nothing is perfect, you can never have everything u want.
The dinner was very bittersweet...different from last week's, when it was so noisy and stuff. This one was sad, in a way, with some tears shed.
No matter how strong i may look, i know i will miss them. But i also know i will see them again. They wont be gone forever. I guess what i'm worried about is not the missing, but that we would drift further and further apart eventually.
If we work hard, this wont happen isnt it?? But who knows??
-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`-`
Spent a little time with ben today, was supposed to study today,....but.leave it to sunday.
We went for a movie after the dinner. I got my baby to come along too....i wonder if he felt sort of left out. We watched the Stepford wives....Another set of concepts. But it was okay i guess...not bad overall. Ben was really tired, cos he had his IPPT in the morning, but being the nice boyfriend he is, he came anyway. Felt so guilty, cos he was like almost sleeping, reddish eyes and stuff...sigh.
Came back, said farewells and voila..here i am.
Oh well...Good Night Everyone
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
bad day bad day
not a very good day indeed.
when i woke this morning it was all fine...until i was at the bus stop i realized i forgot my book, so i went back to get it...mom was just getting ready to leave...got scolded and nagged for leaving my book at home...haiz.....said i didnt pay attention studies or whatever. GOODNESS!!! everyone knows i am very forgetful. so whats new if i leave my book behing. and besides there's no harm in leaving my student pass behind. i dont even need it
reached school at about 1020 plus. it turns out they arent even doing project yet. got so damn pissed. made me go so early and yet waste my time. i hate people wasting my time..sat around in the food court till 11.
then came the stressful part. MMWD lesson. we had a mock test, revision for our flash test next week. Everything we did in the book so far was very simple, everything was in ones, one animation, one movement. but when you put everything together, it is so COMPLICATED!!! It is so difficult. We only did one or not even one page in 1.5 hrs when we were actually supposed to do 3 in 1.5 hrs.
eventually the lesson ended and it was time to do project again. This time is was quite productive, we finished about half so far...
so waited a little while for honeyz...went toilet and stuff...
was very happy to see ben..after a long day, he's prob the only one who can make me smile and laugh..sigh..love you baby
eating so much heaty stuff in the past few days..has finally got to me...i have a BLOODY SORE THROAT....hurts dammit...i hate sore throats
when i woke this morning it was all fine...until i was at the bus stop i realized i forgot my book, so i went back to get it...mom was just getting ready to leave...got scolded and nagged for leaving my book at home...haiz.....said i didnt pay attention studies or whatever. GOODNESS!!! everyone knows i am very forgetful. so whats new if i leave my book behing. and besides there's no harm in leaving my student pass behind. i dont even need it
reached school at about 1020 plus. it turns out they arent even doing project yet. got so damn pissed. made me go so early and yet waste my time. i hate people wasting my time..sat around in the food court till 11.
then came the stressful part. MMWD lesson. we had a mock test, revision for our flash test next week. Everything we did in the book so far was very simple, everything was in ones, one animation, one movement. but when you put everything together, it is so COMPLICATED!!! It is so difficult. We only did one or not even one page in 1.5 hrs when we were actually supposed to do 3 in 1.5 hrs.
eventually the lesson ended and it was time to do project again. This time is was quite productive, we finished about half so far...
so waited a little while for honeyz...went toilet and stuff...
was very happy to see ben..after a long day, he's prob the only one who can make me smile and laugh..sigh..love you baby
eating so much heaty stuff in the past few days..has finally got to me...i have a BLOODY SORE THROAT....hurts dammit...i hate sore throats
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
I see them Bloom
Have you ever felt this way?
When you wake every morning
and have this sense of quiet joy?
Where nothing really bothers you anymore?
Does it get any better than this?
When every moment is magical?
When you wake every morning
and have this sense of quiet joy?
Where nothing really bothers you anymore?
Does it get any better than this?
When every moment is magical?
Monday, August 16, 2004
I see trees of green, red roses too
Every day is a happy day. When i am spending time with ben that is.. oh well..there is something wrong with blogger...and i cant log in but oh well...
saturday
The test i spend a lot of time studying on....and missed out guowei's bdae celebration for is quite good... think i should be able to do well... that is if i dont have too many careless mistakes.Went for a spot of shopping with ben after that. Just walking around, having laughs, telling jokes, making fun of each other.Well, time with ben usually passes so fast, the next thing you know, it is time to part company. So we were supposed to have this big celebration at home, to celebrate 2 persons birthdays. Namely my sister, vanessa....and my cousin..meik kwan. And since they are leaving for canada soon, this gathering was to be a big one. But anyway..i really wished they didnt have to go..but well....life goes on...so,...as usual, the house is in a ruckus and everyone is having fun....
sunday
yes and anyway...today..i was supposed to go out with ben, hmm..but a few days ago, he suggested sentosa..so why not?anyway...woke up bright and early at 1030, prepared..cos i woke too early....went back to my bed to laze about...then got up and mucking about at around 11....rummaging through stuff...thinking about what to bring.....finally finished my mucking about. met ben downstairs and went for breakfast cum lunch with his sister. Marissa is quite nice...she shall be my titbit supplier...*a different type of titbit*..had prata..yet again, and after that, we headed out for our destination of the day..sentosa. was quite sunny when we reached. sat around for a little while. then me and ben had a little walk...just sitting and talking or walking and talking..saw jl and the rest..so walked over to say hi...actually noticed clement first... but anyways...shortly after...the sun started to hide and the clouds started getting ominous-looking..so we decided to get moving...and almost had to forgo our monorail ride as it started raining on our way to the car...but anways..lao tien yeh decided to give us a chance...on the way out. THE RAIN STOPPED...BLOODY WEATHER...always trying to play tricks on us...was a nice ride. but we had to wait a long time to get onto train...
fireworks
yes..since todays one was the last one in a series of three ...we had to go..i must say...fireworks..never fail to ...today, to make sure we could catch it...we started down to the marina area at around 5..changed had dinner and started walking towards esplanade...as you can see from the pictures, we were just below it....*BRIAN U PIG* there are nicer pictures for u to steal this time.....there's one in particular i really love...it looks as if it is raining shooting stars...damn i'm a good photographer...
thoughts
fireworks....they just give you this unexplainable sense of euphoria.....but dont you think they are like the process of our life....?from the moment they are released....you see this bright streak of light (this is the pregnancy stage), then you hear this big bang(birth) and followed by a big burst until it reaches its brightest possible then starts to fade...when it is very bright...it just makes you go wow....but when it starts to fade...it gives you this mellow feeling...when it is in its last stages...it gives you this mystic feeling...like it is full of secrets...isnt is so like our lives as humans?
chilling
anway...after the fireworks..we went to have a drink with lennon and ananda...and after a little browse in hmv..we decided to go chill out in our fav place...the benches around the roundabout at the fountain....its always just a wonder how we can sit there and laugh constantly...or just sit there in comfortable silence..both extremes...i have another juice mag...now i can tear it up and fold boxes again....had a beautiful sunday
now i'm here....at home...feeding mosquitoes and missing him again.
saturday
The test i spend a lot of time studying on....and missed out guowei's bdae celebration for is quite good... think i should be able to do well... that is if i dont have too many careless mistakes.Went for a spot of shopping with ben after that. Just walking around, having laughs, telling jokes, making fun of each other.Well, time with ben usually passes so fast, the next thing you know, it is time to part company. So we were supposed to have this big celebration at home, to celebrate 2 persons birthdays. Namely my sister, vanessa....and my cousin..meik kwan. And since they are leaving for canada soon, this gathering was to be a big one. But anyway..i really wished they didnt have to go..but well....life goes on...so,...as usual, the house is in a ruckus and everyone is having fun....
sunday
yes and anyway...today..i was supposed to go out with ben, hmm..but a few days ago, he suggested sentosa..so why not?anyway...woke up bright and early at 1030, prepared..cos i woke too early....went back to my bed to laze about...then got up and mucking about at around 11....rummaging through stuff...thinking about what to bring.....finally finished my mucking about. met ben downstairs and went for breakfast cum lunch with his sister. Marissa is quite nice...she shall be my titbit supplier...*a different type of titbit*..had prata..yet again, and after that, we headed out for our destination of the day..sentosa. was quite sunny when we reached. sat around for a little while. then me and ben had a little walk...just sitting and talking or walking and talking..saw jl and the rest..so walked over to say hi...actually noticed clement first... but anyways...shortly after...the sun started to hide and the clouds started getting ominous-looking..so we decided to get moving...and almost had to forgo our monorail ride as it started raining on our way to the car...but anways..lao tien yeh decided to give us a chance...on the way out. THE RAIN STOPPED...BLOODY WEATHER...always trying to play tricks on us...was a nice ride. but we had to wait a long time to get onto train...
fireworks
yes..since todays one was the last one in a series of three ...we had to go..i must say...fireworks..never fail to ...today, to make sure we could catch it...we started down to the marina area at around 5..changed had dinner and started walking towards esplanade...as you can see from the pictures, we were just below it....*BRIAN U PIG* there are nicer pictures for u to steal this time.....there's one in particular i really love...it looks as if it is raining shooting stars...damn i'm a good photographer...
thoughts
fireworks....they just give you this unexplainable sense of euphoria.....but dont you think they are like the process of our life....?from the moment they are released....you see this bright streak of light (this is the pregnancy stage), then you hear this big bang(birth) and followed by a big burst until it reaches its brightest possible then starts to fade...when it is very bright...it just makes you go wow....but when it starts to fade...it gives you this mellow feeling...when it is in its last stages...it gives you this mystic feeling...like it is full of secrets...isnt is so like our lives as humans?
chilling
anway...after the fireworks..we went to have a drink with lennon and ananda...and after a little browse in hmv..we decided to go chill out in our fav place...the benches around the roundabout at the fountain....its always just a wonder how we can sit there and laugh constantly...or just sit there in comfortable silence..both extremes...i have another juice mag...now i can tear it up and fold boxes again....had a beautiful sunday
now i'm here....at home...feeding mosquitoes and missing him again.
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