Trying to cover up all my fats 

Part of my Christmas Present, but hmm..the camera is not good enough 

Now...Let me introduce Boyfriend number 2: Jonathan!! 

Let me introduce Boyfriend number 1: Benjamin 

us, lounging at home the day Ben came back from Genting. 

Things as they are

Me and Ben have been going fine, i'm still very happy. I'm not unhappy and i'm not complaining. I just feel that i want to do spontaneous things with Ben. I want to LAUGH with Ben. I sort of miss that. Its not that we dont have fun together. Its just that i really miss the 1st few months of our relationship. I want to go to the Botanic Gardens on a Sunday morning with baby but Sunday Mornings are sleeping days for him. He told me before he would bring me to the zoo, but we havent gone yet. We seldom go somewhere special although it is not hard to find these places. I really love Ben, sometimes i think, maybe so much that its not fair i demand so much from him. I wonder however, is it a lot to want to feel loved? I miss dressing up for him because i dont do it anymore (doesnt match if i do and he doesnt). He always tells me he really misses me, he loves me more than before, i know he does. Its just not enough for me.

Ben went to Genting and he sent me a message. It just occured to me, that is was one of the sweetest messgaes i received in recent times. I never thought he'd miss me so much. Maybe because sometimes at home here, if he wants to see me, he can just come over.

I'm going out with my friends more and more, trying to familiarize myself for when he has to go sailing. Up till now the sailings have only been single days. This is the one time he's not in Singapore for 3 days (in the time since i met him). I love you baby, i do.

going for clubbing recently 

in school today, and yes i look cross eyed here. 

To Love you

I want to wake up beside you every morning
I want to watch every sunrise with you
I want to see the world with you by my side
But most of all
I want to love you each day
and be loved by you for all time.

Bye Bye, see you another day then, Thank you for visiting my blog and i think i am cocked eyed, well a little at least 

Taking pictures in the middle of nowhere! 

Me and Jane @ Paragon. 

I think this shot looks good 

The beautiful pensive steph 

Its offically the first day back at school and suwan has pretty curly hair 

Baby is sleepy after all that excitement. Time to go home. tata 

Yes!! I DEFINITELY grew fatter!!! 

I get a kiss! Anyway, i think i grew fatter, evident in the face. 

4th Month!  

Recent Happenings

Lots of happenings recently, other than going out clubbing again, i went on shopping sprees with mummy and got some new stuff. During one of those sprees, we got a henna hair dye thing from body shop and now its on my hair, waiting to be washed off. Hope it turns out well. Went out with Jane today to do some shopping, well after the shopping sprees recently, dont really see anything i like.

Clubbing was rather okay, we went to devils and it was very packed that night. Marvelle was supposedly coming as well, but she was so late that she arrived 10 mins after i left. The music wasnt really as good as i remember, i prefer China Black.

Will load photos sometime soon