wow!! you can see my figure...i look like a pear! but i think this picture is rather nice..has a sense of mystery surrounding it 

this is a sample of the stupid things we get up to in school when we are bored. let's play a game...guess whose fingers these are?... 

pity you can only see the front..but i guess its enough for me 

ben now has a new car and the car i was sitting on is now gone..sigh..will miss this car. 

my attempt as a pseudo professional photographer..good? i have finally found a way to load photos again!!! 

Humanity & its ingrained Selfishness

Why is it, when you progress through a relationship? People start to tell you to think about if your potential spouse can support you in the future or not. What is this idea of being a tai-tai (essentially useless bum)and just sit around the house when you'll probably have a perfectly useful piece of paper stored somewhere in a file and a 100% well-oiled supercomputer called a brain.

Have we progressed to a calculative and selfish race who live only on the ideals of money and comfort? I dont believe that i should let all the work go to ben and do nothing on my own, as i believe that ben wont do the same to me. I know that in the future, commitment is also a type of responsibility, where you share tasks and integrate ur life into each other's. If love is enough, you wouldnt want the person you love to suffer alone, you would want to see him smile and be happy with you, to work together to make a life that belongs to you. I believe it is, that love should be enough to sustain you. Somehow, many a time, it is not the case. Call me an idealist if you will, i feel there isnt enough idealism in this world. But i also know that idealism without a pinch of realism is just plain daydreaming.

I know i have lived a sheltered life and not known what it is to want. I do know however, that you have to work in order to get what you want. Many people these days it seems, mumble and grumble about daily life being monotonous and boring but fail to see the big picture. What big picture you may ask? It may seem a little morbid but isnt the big picture how you want to be remembered when you are gone? Isnt that also some sort of goal? I want to be known as a good daughter, a good sister, a great life partner, a good friend, a well-loved person.

Why is it in this century, people(particularly young people in developed nations)have morphed from a human race into selfish individuals? What do we want? What are we working towards? What are we becoming? Shouldnt we be asking ourselves these instead of asking...oh is that lv bag real or fake? Why are our idols paris hilton instead of someone who contributed greatly to the improvement of mankind, like Mother Teresa.

Wallpaper Website

Attention...All my wallpaper designs will be loaded on to this website from now on. Please go there to "look see look see" frequently. I will drop a note here if i load new ones. Currently there are MANY new ones as i have been on a frenzy lately.

Yours truly,

Debster

Quote of the week

A home is not a home,
without some semblance of clutter.
Just like life is not complete,
without its ups and downs.

-Debby

Secret Paradise 

Shuai Ge Ben 

Shuai Ge Debby 

Nah Nah Ni Poo Poo 

Hmph!! Who says i'm not pretty? 

Hootie and the Blowfish 

Hootie and the GOLDFISH??? 

Bleahz....Go Away!! 

No Lips 

This was our 2nd month together 

Crouching Goat...Hidden .....Ben? 

The Two Towers

I was out with Ben and happened to look upwards and saw this view. Nice eh? I had to take it down. This one is called...The Two Towers.

Job Interview

hmm...i went for a job interview today at a recruitment agency. I went there before at Adecco. Its is a temp job for my holidays, they said it was to promote christmas stuff (those that you eat) at supermarkets (prob one near your house). I dont know if i'll get it. But if i dont, actually my mom already asked if i wanted to work at her work place. But i want to try it out on my own a little, dont want to rely so much on her. Some people might say i am stupid. Why go out to work when you can be comfortable in your mom's office. I guess i just have to learn, i havent really done anything serious anywhere else except my mom's. I am not going to work there my whole life, so i have to start learning.

Relationship wise, me and ben are quite stable. Fast, dont you think. He is going to start sailing soon, around december. He is trying to get me to learn to be more like a non-stick pan. So that its not so tough. Its not that i cant take it. I just like to let him know that i am thinking of him, maybe because i like to hear the same thing. I know if he starts sailing, there are times when there would be virtually no contact. I have to live with that, thats why i am trying to maximise my time with him now.

exams are coming

i just finished doing a past year exam paper. I wonder if my answers are correct...maybe i'll call Mrs Chopra tomorrow. I hope what i'm doing is enough
i will try to finish most of the past year papers for revision.. then do a wrap up of everything..

I love Ben.

Ling..have you got the stuff i sent over??

Koby shy shy....*uh*(xiao xing voice) 

Meet Koby 

this is a very nice pic..how the sun shines down ... aint no sunshine when he's gone... 

Halloween!!!! Run Away!!!!!!! 

olio dome @ wheelock 

talk about looking horrible 

yes i know been quite a while, but the notebook is still knocked out 

this is me and ben on our 1st month anniversary

Down in the dumps

I went out with my family the whole morning and early afternoon. We went for lunch, grocery shopping. It was rather nice for me, havent been doing that in a while. I dont know, maybe it was just the mood, although i wasnt moody, i didnt feel very happy. I dont like that feeling of being in the middle of nowhere. Maybe cos i really missed Ben? I tried to study in the afternoon, i just couldnt concentrate, but i forced myself to, so i accomplished something worthwhile. I've been quite moody, emotional lately. I havent really experienced such a long pmsing period before.

It really perked my up to see Ben. Should i be putting all my eggs in? In fact i have already put them all in. Sometimes too much. Maybe i should start learning, use this period of time to train myself. Would it work? He is still here anyway. I wonder how i will feel when Ben goes sailing. What would i do if i miss him too much? In fact I'm also in love with his dog. Sigh.

lethargicism

i feel so lethargic recently. I dont know why. I know i cannot compare to those in uni but suddenly, all my energy is gone. I feel drained from the moment i wake up to the time i fall asleep. It's as if there is a strong current taking me under water and in spite of my stuggles, i cant free myself from its grasp.

My exams are coming soon and i have only started to READ my notes. Havent even started studying yet. I really should start. I'm rather worried about SCM ( Supply Chain Management). It is an extremely disgusting module with a revolting lecturer. Oh, how am i supposed to survive.Ben wants me to get good grades but somehow i dont feel up to it anymore. Sigh.

Maybe i'm just feeling down today and want to bitch. Ignore me.

Hello World !!

These 2 words really reminds me of Java. FYI everyone who learns java will start with these 2 words. Had a good day today, went for french in the morning. Jean Marc wasnt so grumpy today.

Ben's been driving Irving's Car these past few days. All i can say is sitting in irving's car is very funny. Its very bumpy.. and sometimes is will bump so much that u start laughing. Like tickling. We went to Jurong Point today. Wow!! Jurong Point is so big and nice. Ok, i am swakoo, so sue me. Now i know why Weiyuan and Mark always go there (besides the fact that they live nearby). We had delifrance. We hung around a little, walking around, had a laughing good time.

We took MRT today!! Cos irving's car was at some workshop (Ben was in charge of sending it there). Its a nice experience taking the MRT with my baby. Cos when he is driving i dont usually get to hug him and stuff. Maybe we could do it more often. But i dont think babay likes taking public transport.

Mum was cooking today, so she asked us to come home for dinner. Yes yes, time for her to show off. I had my favourite fish today. The pork chop was fantastic as usual. Let me describe the fish and make ur mouth water. They buy a large pomfret then ask the uncle to cut out all the meat (ie seperate it from the bones) then when they reach home, they cut up the meat into strips then roll it with mushrooms and chinese ham. Delicious!! Ben loved the pork chops, he had 2 pieces! OMG, the crabs today were huge. I think the entire span was almost 50cm, goodness...you ever seen crabs this huge?

Notes:

• Irving's Car gets just as much attention as Ben's Car
• In case y'all are wondering, Ben is on leave these few days
• 'M' size in 37 degrees will fit a small size(for tops) but for shorts, the same size fits a 'xs'.
• I added more stuff into my yahoo auctions today

Plaster!!!

MUAHAHAHAHA!!
I finally got to eat my plaster prata again!! FYI Plaster is a normal prata but cooked with a sunny side up plastered onto the top. In class now, just handed in the last of the reports. Sigh, hope we do well. The exams are coming soon. and i havent started studying..oh well. maybe i will study together with luen when she is at home.

Another Debby Day

It was a wonderful day, another debby day. School started off well enough. Although i left my lecture notes in the lecture theatre. Good thing they were still there after tutorial. Attack of the blur sotong once again.

It was a nice day. But around 5, i got a call from mummy, oh no!! Kei kei fell into a drain. I heard 'duan' means broken, but it was just scrape. I thought my heart would fall out of my throat and plop onto the floor still beating. On the plus side, it was just a flesh wound, nothing serious. and my sweetie was such a brave girl, she didnt cry. I love you kei kei.

After we got home to check on kei kei. We went for our dinner at Fish & Co. I was so full, actually funny, but i am still kinda full now. We went to sit for a while at our fav benches and we also went to the Roof Garden at suntec, it really is very romantic at night. Then we watched Wimbledon. It is a good watch. Funny, if you like english humourish films. Sweet Romantic. Basic tennis knowledge required for full appreciation. Exciting. Basically good. I love Ben, and he looked very smart today.

I want to go KTV.I want to go KTV.I want to go KTV.I want to go KTV.I want to go KTV

2nd month anniversary

its 1 am in the morning. on a good note, it is our 2nd month anniversary. on a not so good note, ben hasnt wished me yet. don't know what he is doing, maybe sleeping, but he probably doesnt realise i'm online. oh well, i'm the one who told him i wont be coming online.

I admit the reason i didnt want to come online cannot be particularly attributed to my wanting to finish my book. But it was more, i didnt want to come online and have nothing to do. Its not that i dont like it when ben plays his game. All guys play games, this is an undeniable fact. I just feel so left out when he is playing. Sigh, at times i think i demand too much, that i am too high maintenance. Who is to blame but myself? I really wish at times i didnt need so much attention. But when i love someone, i want his attention. This is only natural isnt it? No use looking for attention elsewhere when his is the only one that can satisfy you. And it is not for lack of his attention that i want. He gives me a lot of attention. Sometimes i just wish i could be content. I am too spoiled for my own good.

Oh well, good night.

I Love You

i love all the little things you do for me

i love the way you treat me

i love the way you care for me

i love the way you worry for me

i love the way you brush my hair

i love the way you kiss my cheek

i love you

Presentation Day

I had my presentation for Supply Chain Management today. Although Mr Tang (affectionately known as ai kia) said he felt we were the best group, I think i sucked. I was fumbling all over the place, getting nervous, forgetting my points. Gosh he even said i look comfortable up there. Something Wrong..sigh.

Anyway, after that, we had to rush our EPI(see previous posts) report as it was due today, we had to do our printing and stuff. We were so lucky we chanced upon Kim's(prev tutor for html) Lab class and knowing her she allowed us to use the lab. So we were printing our stuff, and i didnt have my phone with me. and babay Called many times!! Sorry babay.(Serves you right! Muaahahahaha!!)

I was suprised to see Ah beng after school. Man i miss my exclass, i dont like my new class, not hate, but i just dont like it. It isnt as comfortable as before, there are too many girls, it is too segmented. I havent been eating chwee kueh with the gang for some time, only with ben. We havent played dai dee (or more specifically me..to think it used to be my fav game), we havent been bowling since yr 1 sem 1. And i still remember Tan Chee Seong's black face whenever we came back for java cos we went bowling. One day he just blew his top when he found out we were always late cos we went bowling. FYI almost the whole class was late together, with the exception of rishii. And Tan Chee Seong was very nice, so you can imagine our shock but oh well, you cant push a man too far.

Then when i reached home. I changed and went straight to the pool. one look at the pool and i could tell something was wrong. You know how it is when the sunshine is very strong, you can see that the water is very shiny and the light fills the whole pool. Well... it wasnt like that, the baby pool was normal, but the larger pool was a little greenish in color. you could see the obvious difference between them. I swam for almost an hour before the guard came by to tell us (there were 2 china kids) that the pool was dirty, so we cannot swim, sigh..

Then i went out with Ben for dinner and voila. I am home now writing this. Think i will go bathe and read a book. It is so blardie hot today!! Oh yes..Aaron i can cook, just not complicated things, but simple things is manageable..

ordinarily beautiful day

everything about today was ordinarily beautiful and exciting. It is a debby day. First thing i see in the morning are the papers, and it turns out that Manny is ok
(if you dont know who manny is, bad bad you should be reading the papers, they are good for you). Anyway, i did my work, i finished it. All is good.

Until about 2/3. Lunch time. Kei Kei was back, but she hasnt had lunch. So being the good sister that i am, i made noodles for her, since she does not know how to cook.
And after i finished cooking for her. i decided to finish my work before cooking for myself. So, at this time, kristalle decided to cook too, BUT there was NO MORE GAS! i told her that new tank there can be used. she insisted we shouldnt use it as they usually use it for spare!! wat! argh..so hungry, so i called ben...genius (ahem ahem) he said use the microwave. So use it i did!!! I timed it to 3mins on high, but it was still in that shape. So another 2 mins, it was ok, but a little stiff, then another min and tada!! Since it was the dry type, just drain the water , add the seasoning and voila! We have instant me! Wow!! really can. So, highlight of the day(besides going out with ben that is): I used the microwave to make instant mee.

ok, so it was time to go out, but luen was already out, i couldnt leave kei kei at home, so called mom and she told me to bring her down to the centre(mom's work place). Then we went down to cine to get ticks for white chicks(hey!! it rhymes). 1720h show, so we went to the library for a short while. returned books, and browsed a little. We almost didnt make it again, almost , it was just starting when we got into the cinema(heng!) and the movie is hilarious, laugh till you drop hilarious. Oh and Di! the trailer, the part when they went up the escalator and the 2 little boys saw from below , it didnt happen in the movie.

After which we went for dinner at my favourite shredded chicken hor fun place. For foodies if you want something cheap but not too bad shredded chicken hor fun , just go to boon tong kee river valley there, the corner coffeeshop. $2.50 per plate. Then on our way home, we picked luen up and headed for home.

End of the story of my ordinarily beautiful day.

I finished!

Ha!!!! I finally finished my Etiquette and Professional Image Report...Yay!! I have 1433 words and 3 pages of appendix!! Wow!! Happy happy...Happy Happy...Ben is still sleeping...sigh. He bought me something yest...yay!

the girl in school

ok, since aaron asked, this post is for his reading pleasure. As he is very bored and depressed, i hope this bit of gossip cheers him up a little, like 5%?

The girl was 19, malaysian, jumped from the 4th floor @T15. She didnt die instantly but at NUH @ 2 pm. Police has classified this case as unnatural death. No known reasons why she jumped. Adapted from The Straits Times.

Tuition

I have decided to take up tuition. Anybody with any lobangs please leave a comment.